I haven't posted in such a long time.
I still dunno if anyone out there actually reads this blog, but I still feel responsible for doing what I set out to do from the start--and that is write.
So college has been kicking my ass, and it now seems like the only time I have to actually submit to my blog is when I'm in bed about to go to sleep. It's been a rough past two weeks, but whoa, my freshman year of college is almost over.
Time is merciless.
Lately, I've def been feeling overwhelmed. Mainly because of school. But life's a balancing act: my relationship, my friends, my family, thinking about my future, my jobs--it seems lately like my passion and happiness has taken a backseat.
Not to say I'm mad or upset or depressed, I just have more important things to maintain. But then again, as I lay here in my warm/cool bed, by the open window, and as these insomniac Baltimore birds chirp away as if the sun was out, I just listen to my music and think about home and what I've accomplished and realize--I'm fine, everything's gonna be alright, MY LIFE IS GOOD. I was raised to be a trooper, and I need to remind myself of that throughout the day. Life's not hard, everyone has the right to stress and be dramatic but we can't forget about the beauty in ourselves, the people we put around us, and the opportunities in tomorrow. As far as I'm concerned--it's never really over.
(I might just be in one of my sentimental, spiritual moods cause I'm tired or physically/mentally exhausted, or maybe it's the music. But, remember, everything I write is from the heart.).
If you're ever feeling like this, close your eyes, take a deep breath, and think about your happiest moment. Remove yourself from negativity and do what makes you happy. Sing, hug someone, look at old pictures, or just relax and lay in the sun. You'll figure it out best when you're least concerned. So I usually listen to my iPod before going to sleep (I like being serenaded). Therefore, this post is from my iPod and I apologize for any sloppiness. But if I continue to do these posts from my bed before I sleep, they're most likely gonna be about the music I listen to before I go to bed. Enjoy. The song playing right now is 'I Will Follow You Into the Dark' by Death Cab for Cutie. Beautiful, different, relaxing and uber-poetic song.
Listen to it !
"If there's no one beside you when your soul embarks, then I'll follow you into the dark."
Just a simple 'I'm always here for you no matter what' is what softly rings in this chorus. Something we all need to hear a little more in our lives. The light strings of the guitar are definitely encouraging me to just fall asleep. The lead singers voice matches the light strings, melody, and lyrics perfectly.
I'm in such a chill mood right now, this song just hit the spot tonight.
"The time to sleep is now, it's nothing to cry about. We'll hold each other soon."
Ahh, well he said it best. Summed up everything I wanted to say. Nothing to cry about, relax, life goes on, and we'll have each other soon. And goodnight kids, that's it for tonight.
PS. & This is in no way directed at anyone.
But, I implore anyone reading this, never go to bed angry at someone. Fact of the matter is, you never know when you'll see them again, and we always want good memories. Only love and I'll see you soon.
Peace cadets !
DreamWorldDrizzy
See you soon!
